Here's a story of a girl,
 Living in the lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I check you out,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
 If you lose your way,
 I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?


PROFILEY



20 yrs old female, whose birthday is on 1st December.
Working as a nurse.
Waiting for Mr Right to appear




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    Tuesday, June 30, 2009
    6:58:00 AM

    I'm in a cab on my way to work, and I'm online.. Wohoo.. The wonders me mobile broadband is, u can serve anywhere.. Woke up late again.. Haiz.. It's a miracle that I'm still surviving.. Super duper shagged these few day.. Work hasn't been all that well.. It's getting confusing by the day..

    sometimes i wonder.. Do i really wanna work at this place? But sometimes, a thought, is just a thought.. All the sudden changes is making me kinda giddy.. While some changes are good, others are unnecessary.. Haiz.. Dunno la.. So sick and tired of all the nonsense..

    reaching soon.. Will update later..

    Will you ever notice me...

    Saturday, June 27, 2009
    9:10:00 PM

    2nd day without feng around.. still kinda feel weird..



    yesterday was kinda bad.. coz went to work with swollen eyes.. and was super tired.. had to do triage coz not enough ppl and the total h1n1 cases has increased to 300+ cases so everyone has to wear masks.. including the patients.. sianz.. den just nice lynn came from my side.. we chatted for awhile den my eyes started to fill again.. i was like oh shit.. damn.. chatted awhile more den she went up to find ppl le..



    during lunch, chatted with nu'er the whole lunch hour.. so long since i talked to her on the phone for so long.. she wasn't in a good mood.. talked den she was kinda crying and i on the phone oso started tearing up.. LOL.. emotions ran wide on tt day..



    den ran clinic in the afternoon.. everything went well until there was a crazy pt.. i literally quarrelled with her inside the room.. she just wun let me explain to her abt her condition.. and keep quarrelling with me.. walao ehs.. so pissed.. already my mood not good.. den she somemore step on my tail.. was like scolding vulgarities when she left the room..



    anyway, after work, went home.. had plans with nu'er to go k.. went home to change and online awhile.. just nice feng was online.. so chatted with her awhile.. haha.. there must be very cold coz she was like in her thick jacket.. hahaha.. felt better after tt.. went out and made our way to clementi to go k.. bought dinner and smuggled in.. wakaka... after that, qiang joined us.. though we are all tired, we all were like super high at the end.. sang and jumped around.. wakaka.. sang from 8 to like maybe 1 liddat..



    today slept till super late.. hahahaha..



    need to find some things to fill up my friday nights.. feel free to ask me out.. but i dun wanna go clubbing... LOL.. maybe once a month or something.. but not always.. hahahaha



    Shkn

    Will you ever notice me...

    Thursday, June 25, 2009
    11:39:00 PM

    back to update..

    watched Transformers 2 - Revenge of The Fall yesterday with feng and her frens.. nice movie.. love the graphics.. and of course the cars.. haha..

    went to work as per normal today.. but only difference is, i had to rush down to the airport after work.. why? to send yifeng off.. she have officially left Singapore to pursue her studies in Australia, Brisbane..

    can see that she was trying to be strong for her family.. when i reached, her mom's face was already red.. as in literally red.. jessica told me that she and her mom had a round of tears..

    before long, it was time for them to get ready to go in.. went to find xiuyun.. when i reached at her side, i started talking to her.. she looked happy that she is going there.. den we were talking and i couldn't hold back the tears.. was super sad.. hugged her tightly.. after i had calmed down, me and jessica went to find yifeng they all.. started taking photo and so on.. i was still quite calm.. den, it was time for them to go in.. i let yifeng say her goodbye to her family.. all started to tear up.. i was still quite calm.. i can see that she's trying to be strong for her family especially her mom.. so i din really gif her a big hug.. once she went in, i started to tear up.. but was still okie until one of her frens, eileen, go and say 'just cry ba'... just that 3 simple words, tears started to drop.. after a few minutes i managed to calm down.. den they sent me to clementi mrt station..

    from there i took a cab home coz i noe if i take the mrt, ppl will start finding me weird.. coz once i stepped out of feng's fren's car, tears already treatened to fall.. once i board the cab, tears start dropping non-stop.. tried to stop it.. but it's like an opened pipe..

    somehow it feels empty now that feng left.. will miss so many things abt her.. though the two of us always quarrel, but, only between the two of us, quarreling is what makes our friendship strong..

    things gonna miss abt her
    1)miss her noisy voice
    2)miss the night out where we watch movie and sit down and chat
    3)miss quarrelling with her
    4)miss just picking up a call and chat with her on the phone
    5)i can't believe i'm gonna say this, but i'll also miss being hit by her..

    some may be negative things, but sometimes, when u are used to it, when it's gone, u'll miss it so much..

    to feng,
    take care when u are over there okie.. hope u adapt to the life there well.. contact me once u've settled down.. dun forget to add me on skype.. so we can talk to each other online okie.. jiayou for ur studies.. hope u'll come back during the holidays den we can hang out.. anyway, i'll try to make it to find u in aussie nx year okie.. miss u loads.. talk to u again once u're online..

    Shkn

    Will you ever notice me...

    Thursday, June 04, 2009
    9:35:00 PM

    i'm tired.. just came back from NUH... for those who dunno, well, my dad is in the hosp.. coz the doc wants to put him in for observation due to his blood sugar again... purposely took off to acc him but it seems like a waste of my time..

    i feel so exhausted.. i feel like i'm a failure as a daughter.. i try so hard to get his attention but whatever i do, it's like it's just not enough.. worried that he will be lonely, i took half day to acc him in the ward.. what did i do? i just sat there and watched shows on my com.. i could have stayed at work but i chose to stay with him.. but it's like it's still not enough.. i do not know what more i should do..

    talked to the nurses just now coz they saw me go in with my uniform.. haiz.. i noe the consequences of high blood sugar.. how can i noe.. but what can i do.. told him SO many times le.. he got control.. but it's just that it doesn't seem to work for him.. sitting there for the few hours made me think a lot.. i noe in my heart that my dad's body is already so weak.. i'm so afraid that he will suddenly leave us.. but he doesn't seem to understand and can down there joke that the hospital is like a hotel.. he seem to love being in there... but he doesn't know that the more he is in there.. the more i worry abt his health.. it's like he doesn't care abt his health.. when he say that staying in the hosp is like a holiday.. it hurts.. because it's like staying at home is so xinku for him.. i dun wanna imagine what will happen if anything were to happen to him..

    i have a sister who is never at home and a brother that is at home but rely on the family financially.. i dunno what is wrong in the picture.. sometimes i find that the age gap between all of us is so big that i find it suffocating.. 12 and 13 years.. but why is it that i see other ppl's family who has a bigger age gap than me.. they can still live happily.. could it be because my older siblings are still single? i always envy those families that are close knit.. but just dun understand y is my family like this.. what is wrong with this family? i just can't find a reason..

    my blog is always full of entries about my family.. those who noe me well should noe the reason y..

    exhausted from all the tears...

    Will you ever notice me...