> Shrouded in darkness;

Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

PROFILEY

20 yrs old female, whose birthday is on 1st December.
Working as a nurse.
Waiting for Mr Right to appear

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LOVES AND HATESY

My Friends
Singing and Dancing
Listening to songs
Playing lohz... haha...
Surfing net
Getting to know new ppl
----------------------- Backstabbers
My life
Bit**** & Bast****
Being Someone I'm not
Being ignored

DESIRESY

Someone Who Treats Miee Well
New Handphone
~~Laptop~~
Lose as much weight before Christmas
MY OWN ROOM!!

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EXITSY

Aretha. Benedict. Benjamin. Christina. Ernest. Elaine. Ellialyn. Fiona. Grp 24. Jane. Jeremy Jessica Jez. Kleo. Lokhai. LuCIus. mimi. Mingli. Pei Ying. Rebecca. Sara Shumei. sT nu'er. Theodora. WeiQiang.

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Lyrics of the song "Notice Me" by Zetta Bytes

~~Thursday, August 25, 2005~~

7:10:00 PM

can someone help me? i going crazy... exams enough to stress me.. now have to think abt the class bbq... so many problems... haiz.. i now stress until head and chest start to pain le... like wanna cry liao... i dunno wad u all wan lehz.. wan class outing, make... then u all dun wanna go... then if nv make, keep asking... ask when u all wan.. u all nv say anything... no one wanna take initiative.. ask u all to pay oso so ma fan.. one by one cannot go... make this thing for wad??!!! MAKE ME CRAZY ONI AH??!!! CRACK MY BRAIN FOR GAMES AND FOOD FOR WHO??!!! ME AR??!!! OSO FOR U ALL???!!!!! HAVE U ALL EVER BEEN APPRECIATIVE OF WAD I DO FOR U ALL???!!! SINCE SEC SCHOOL ASK U ALL TO HELP ME DO THING OSO SO DIFFICULT.. NOW WANNA MAKE OUTING... SO TT WE CAN CATCH UP ON OLD TIME OSO SO DIFFICULT IZZIT??!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz... i very tired le... u all wanna do wad, u all do ba... i really like wanna give up liao lohz.. ernest.. u wanna do wad, u go do ba... i wash my hands le... now no longer all of u all the chairperson le... cannot control u all.. even if i chairperson oso as if u all got listen to wad i sae... i nth to sae liao... bbye...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, August 22, 2005~~

7:01:00 PM

let's start frm yesterdae ba.. haha... ok... went to st's house... on the way there, ernest call me... talk abt the bbq... then talk abt jessie... haha... all the way until at st's house... still talking to him on the phone.. say abt the bbq.. jez la.. keep denying everything... make me take all the blame.. but i nv do anything.. haha... then ernest hor.. he hor... he say tt jez cute lehz... haha.... then i disturb him.. haha... i noe.. i very bad... at st's house, shockingly, i was able to study... haha.. so fun.. haha... we study for a while.. then we sing our songs... haha.. fun hor st.. practicing for k-box le... muahaha... after that, we went to lot 1 for dinner... met up with st's fwen... hehe..... should noe who.. muahaha... anyway, eat dinner le, then walk2.. after tt have to go home... reach hm abt 9plus... then i edit my fanfic... after tt i go study... study until 3 plus.. tot should get some shut eye b4 exams... but cannot slp... the thing is, i am not nervous lohz... even if nervous, i still can slp lohz... but this time i really cannot slp... then toss and turn.. force myself to slp.. but still nv slp...

until time to wake up... at last get up at 815... then sat in front of com, start studying... i very gan chong.... then cont studying all the way until i got ready for school... on the way, still can memorise things... walk all the way to school then rush into examination hall... coz is almost time to start the exam le... go in oni, shade finish my particulars, i flip to the SAQ qns.. then i almost JUMP and SHOUT with joy... haha.. coz they give 4 qns.. then have to choose two.. then two of the qns i noe and VERY familiar with.. hah... so i was happy... when the invigilator ask us to start, i do the SAQ 1st lohz... i oso got 70 mcg qns to fin.... but the thing is right... i finish the paper in 45 mins... the paper suppose to be 2 hrs lohz... then i oni finish in 45 MINS..... i told my fwen.. then she say i crazy... haha... then is like i daydream for abt 40 mins.. when i see other ppl go le then i oso go... haha... funny... then got meeting at SU... i assistant publication ma.. so have to go.. but 1st met with farid to take $$ for the bbq... when i reach su office, he was sitting at the edge there.. then i shout at him.. ask him wanna die ah.. then he laugh... stupid... then go su there discuss le then play here and there... walao eh.. now i got phobia for the song 'dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shei'... my senior, who is a malay, like tt song, then is like he dunno the words then anyhow sing... dunno wad rojak, char kueh tiaw all come out... i down there laugh until i stomachache... haha... then abt 5 plus liddat i go hm..
reach hm le eat like monster... hungry until like shit.... i morning and lunch nv eat.. walao.. stomach calling for food le... haha...

for those who dunno wad sosiology is, it is the study of the society... haha... is sth like psychology, but psychology is oni one person... sosiology is the whole society... ok... haha...

i now can die liao... still got exams.. then still needa plan for bbq... tt ernest now dunno was bullshit last min cannot plan.. like shit lohz... haiz.. i can die frm stress le... ok la.. i wanna go write my ff le... bbye....

=-*signing off... shik*-=

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, August 19, 2005~~

9:39:00 PM

argh!!! todae was sociology exam... omg! was so nervous!!! i scared until like shit.. coz i like cannot remember anything... haha.. in the exam rm, i was like 'enjoying' myself doing the mcq.. coz quite easy.. then when it comes to the SAQ.. i was like 'SHIT!!!! I CANNOT REMEMBER THE THING I STUDIED..." but luckily i remembered the second qn... i panicked sia... haha.. .then after then, i crack my brain until like shit to find out the answer for the 1st one... luckily i remember a bit.. at least wun really lose many marks... haiz..like shit.. 1down, 5 more to go.. saw an ad.. say yida coming to NYP for concert... on thursday.. i got exam on tt dae sia... but it will be after my exam... haha... this time round is not student union organise.. is NYP pals..so... sorry jez... i have no access to the tix.. haha.. so cannot take for u.. haha... anyway, plz support my fanfiction, www.winglin.net/fanfic/x1e_wEi_lUn .... arigato...

this is for ernest... tot u LOVE ur ncc so much.. so proud of it.. how come u dun wan ur children to be in it.. haha...

*signing off*

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, August 18, 2005~~

3:58:00 PM

haha.. long time nv update le... yeah... anyway... been bz studying... tomolo got exam le... haiz... but i now sick until like shit.. these few days one whole dae oni eat 1 meal.. my mom oso sae me le.. but i no appetite eat wad? gimme my fav food oso like so difficult to swallow... yesterday went to SU meeting.. got event coming up... and i am part of the commitee.. haha.. siao le... gonna go crazy soon... haha... anyway, tot my com kanna virus sia... scare the shit outta me... but false alarm... is oni an alert saying tt i may get it.. but haven get yet... haha.. anyway, todae oso liddat.. wake up to early, head pain until like shit... haiz... cannot sleep, no appetite... wad happening to me sia... oso these few days feel so down.. haiz... oso have to make the class outing... exams, attachment, SU event, class outing.. die le.. haiz.. 1st time stress until like this.. but i have to relax... calm down... juz now juz finish eating.. oso eat so little.. eat so little oso i full le.. now feel like vomitting le... haiz... wad happening to me sia.. haiz... go le.. go write my fanfiction...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, August 15, 2005~~

6:43:00 PM

now, to avoid anymore quarrel, backstabbing or wadsoeva... i will not talk to anyone in school... i will juz study and try my best not to talk to anyone.. i will jus study and go home... i will become a nerd back again... haiz... this is the life in poly... all sorts of ppl... those whom u can trust and those whom u can't... life sux... now have to study hard le... dun wanna let anyone down....

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, August 13, 2005~~

10:38:00 PM

haha.. i noe.. u all cursing me liao for taking so long to update blog.. haha.... anyway.. todae not bad dae.. haha... anywae.. promised jez tt i will teach her how to make kueh.. so she come over lohz... then ask st over oso.. haha... then abt 2 plus liddat jez and st reach my house.. haha.. then jez use my com lohz.. she have project to finish.. then have to hand in nx week.. haha... ok lohz... then when she reach le.. i get ready th ingredients... i teaching her how to make onde onde ma.. haha...

then st down there yan jiu my com and oso take photos of jez making kueh... haha... very funny sia... coz i help her make a bit then like the rest she make one.. i in the kitchen cooking the kueh... haha... i say funny coz jessie make the kueh tt time horz.. she make until very funny... then the last batch tt time i let her cook lohz.. i leave it to her.. the water i let her put the kueh in was clear lohz... a bit blury coz of the flour.. then when i go back into the kitchen, see how she is doin... wah... the water become brown.... coz the sugar inside the kueh 'explode' out.. it was disgusting lohz... haha.. but funny lehz... coz i put the kueh in tt time, i will look at the kueh.. whether go hole or not.. i dun think she go see... tt is y the water full of caramel... haha... brown lehz... very er xin lohz... haha... then make finish le let jez finish her report.. then we go lot 1... i kanna pinch by jessie until my arm red lehz... pain lohz... now still pain... coz my hand already pain... becoz of yesterday... then she still grab... pain lohz... then dunno y we all reminise of the past.. in sec sch... miz sec sch man.. haha...

speaking of yesterday... for those who dunno.. i almost kanna knocked down by a car... it was scary.. then i hit my hand on the pole beside me... pain sia.. i was thinking of thing yesterday.. then crossing the road tt time... out of nowhere got one car... almost bang into me.. it was scary... but i was oso a bit hoping for it to bang into me... but it didn't.. the driver managed to stop in time... haiz... then go home... hand ache until like shit... pain sia... then todae tt jez still grab... pain sia...

*signing off*

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, August 07, 2005~~

9:09:00 PM

WEEE~~~~~
todae was a fun day.. haha... first went to meet dee at lot 1... then lawrence and jing cai at yew tee... after tt, meet st... noe where we going???? K ONE AUTOGRAPH SESSION~~~~ haha... i now still a bit high... oso a bit tired.. haha... ok here goes...

we reach oni, look for law's fwen... tt is already lining up lohz... haha.. then the line like SO long... then we all, all jaw dropping le... haha... then st pass he album to law, tot tt one person can sign more than 1 album... then they start singing and dancing lohz... i tiptoe until my ankle problem come back le.. pain sia... then my back prob oso come back le coz i stand too long.. haha.. then st and jc try to take as many photos as possible.. but hor.. too back le.. then got this stupid bloody board hor, so big, then no consideration one.. we trying to watch, then they down there keep blocking our view lohz... wanna take photo oso cannot... pek cek...then down there shout here shout there hor... until i wanna deaf le... haha...they sing until so nice... haha

then the host say tt one person can oni sign one album.. then the st ask us go line-up oso.. we wait for a while then line up... jc and st go line-up 1st.. then i wait fo law to finish signing lohz... then we take st's album and another one of law's album.. haha... then me and st line up go sign the thing.. the nearer we are to the stage, the more nervous we are.. haha... then when go up, 1st one darren... ARGH! SHUAI MAN... haha... then get to shake hands with JR and Gino... dunno got shake hands with Kido or not.. forget le.. haha.. but nv shake hands with darren... *sniff**sniff* ... we go out le then chiong back up.. coz they leaving ma.. then we all down there move nearer to the stage... so near to them lehz... haha... K ONE... SHUAI! haha... then they talk talk.. st they all got great pics lohz... haha.. so nice...

then we went to moss burger to eat... me and dee was talking abt sth... then st and jc whispering abt me.. then i dunno.. i juz nod.. coz dee oso talking to me.. then st and jc tot tt i answering them.. tiao.. then on the way home, we all siao liao... we down there in the mrt do CRAZY thing.. haha.. lame lohz... haha... like shit sia... but very tired.. and smelly.. coz perspire until like shit... haha... ok.. gtg le... tomolo still got school... nitez

going off....
shik

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, August 05, 2005~~

1:00:00 PM

haiz... yesterday slp quite late... i actually wanted to post b4 i slp one... but i was too tired... and oso a bit sad... yesterday slp late coz was watching show... haiz.... here is wad happened...

i was waiting for wan quan yu le to start.. then i no choice have to watch through mosaic(a lot of channel in one screen)... then see here see there lohz... when wan quan yu le start liao then the guess star is 5566... haha... got all 4 of them lohz.. but renfu cannot talk... coz his throat pain... then the production dun let him talk fot abt 1 week... then he have to write on the board ma... sad lehz... he cannot talk... haiz... then they play this game lohz... got their mvs, then have to guess thing... haha... then they alll talk fast fast... when it comes to renfu rite, he have to write on the blackboard... then they say he very slow... he kanna bully until like wad... he cry lehz... walaoz.... haiz... then they continue lohz... got to hear their new song.... very nice... then they even learn how to do sign languange... renfu sometimes talk oso use sign languange... haiz.... poor thing...

then, when wan quan yu le wanna end le, i saw another show... entertainment news... got energy.... they were getting ready for their last ever concert... then it is like so sad lohz.... i feel like crying... then it is like the one in s'pore... saw how they practice and practice in the HOT HOT sun... perspire untill like wad.... xin tong.... haiz... then when it is the concert time, everyone, INCLUDING AHDI DANCE LEHZ.... OMG! when i saw, my heart shatter sia into pieces... ah di actually sang wrong lyrics for 'di er ci ai shang ni' i think... coz he was listening to the fans... not to the song... haiz... then is their so lo performance.... shu wei~~~~~~ he play piano until his legs tremble lehz... walao.... then was ah di.... OMG! i see him i cry lehz... he was singing hong dou... then he halfway through cry until his voice crack lehz.... then they sing the song wo men... haiz... i yesterday cry and cry until llike shit... then the concert end le they so happy i down here still so sad... haiz... but i hope tt ah di will get well soon.... we will miz them a lot...

haiz.... while writng this, listen to ah di sing... crying while typing this oso...... argh!!!! cannot tahan le.... have to go off b4 i really cry non-stop......

Will you ever notice me...