20 yrs old female, whose birthday is on 1st December.
Working as a nurse.
Waiting for Mr Right to appear
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ok la... i now undate.. haha.. ppl saying me liao... jus tt these few days a bit pissed la... coz ppl like forcing me to find bf when i dun wan to ... when i dun wan, they introduce them to me.. sick of it sia... dun force ma plz... i dun wan, means tt i dun wan.. i dun like MEANS tt i DUN like... ok... plz la.. dun force ma.. oh ya and one more thing... radiah, if u are reading, plz tell azmi NOT TO INTRODUCE GUYZ TO ME!!!!!! I NOT INTERESTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok... i dun wanna say anymore... take care.... i may not update frequently... i these few days not free...
today one whole day stay at hm... really nv do anything loh.. whole day online... haha... read fanfiction the whole day... sian until like wad.. then after tt, offline 4 a while... then now, i online again.. haha... sound boring rite.. it really is.. hehe... but i got to eat pizza... haha... my sis when she get hm, we ordered pizzas.... soooooooo delicious.. haha... then after dat, i watch this malay show.. it is sooooo sad.. i cried.. haha... sound lame rite.. but it is sad loh... after watching tt show, i suddenly feel so down... cause i nth to do.. then i remembered all my problems... feel like crying again.. i noe tt jez say not to punch the wall.. but i can't help it... i end up punching my pillow... but my pillow was on the wall la... so i really felt the hardness loh... i really need to get a bloody punching bag... if not, all my pillows will get soft.. haiz... wad can i do? i dunno wad i can do to not think abt them loh.. haiz.. later b4 i slp, i gonna have a movie marathon.. all by myself.. and i will punch my 'punching bag' again... haha... i noe.. i sound crazy rite... well, i am... i am so insane, tt i can practically be in IMH... i think, if i in there, the patients there would be the ones whom i punch... cannot contain the anger in me... i am living double lives.. at hm, i am sum1 else.. outside, be it in school, or with st they all, i will be sum1 else.. they dun really noe the real me... no one, not even my parents noe the real me.. and no one will ever find out... no one.. i wun let anyone in my heart or in my mind.. once, they are in, they would noe who am i.. they would try to change it.. even i dunno how to change it.. i dun think they will noe either.. they will drift further frm me... haiz..
haiz... today dunno y my mood on and off.... haiz.... no mood sia... whole day..... sumtimes i ok, sumtimes i not ok... dunno y... maybe it's jus tt i have no mood... but i try to make myself happy... why am i feeling this way? i dun remember anything happening to me... i even feel like crying.... jus now saw wei seong... he nv see me so many times... haha.... today nth special happened.... but i dunno y i am writing blog oso.... i feel so dead... like my life force have been sucked outta me... i still dunno y i no mood.... i feel like punching the wall till i bleed again... but i can't do tt....my mom will scold me again... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today i go to school to take the laminated cert... walked pass the dnt block... then all kinds of memories come back to me... how we always sit in the rm nx to the lab and play2 instead of doing work... how we all always go into the lab and play2... i suddenly miss school... while walking, i suddenly saw tt zhan rong's class having dnt... then i ignore loh... go to the office and take the laminated cert... then the clerks there ask me how i doing loh.. then i ans... tot wanna look for the teachers and chat wif them.. but i jus go off loh... cause i nd to go to school... then i walk pass the dnt lab again loh... then zhan rong come out frm the theory rm... then we chat for a while... then shaiful come out... he say long time nv see me... he ask whether i go miss him or not.. i say a plain flat NO....haha... funny sia... then i go off liao loh.. i reach school VERY early loh... abt 1045 reach yck... i go school 1st... instead of waiting for the rest.... haha... i sit down there alone like one dumbass... hahaha.... when it was time for the lecture, i go in 1st loh... haha... i jus sit down there... waiting for them... when it was the break time, we go eat, then go library... i was listening to karimah's mp3 to the song an jing... i was so sad tt moment tt i cry... luckily di and ah boy nv see... if not they will ask me one...haha... then we sit at the library.. the corner tt is called the 'noisy' corner... we talk until like so loud and fun... haha... they crazy sia... hahahahahaha.... after the lecture, we go home loh.. then di pass me his mp3 and usb cable... he ask me to help him upload chinese songs into his mp3... haha... then i put the songs he wana the energy and 5566 song.. haha.. i think he will faint loh when he see his mp3 full of those songs... muahahaha....
today VERY fun day.... haha... we all have a presentation to do... we were all in our respective costumes for the presentation... haha... my group was doing peranakan.. mimi and another classmate would be wearing the sarong kebaya... i wear my baju kebaya.. haha... i look so stupid sia... haha.. but they say nice.. but i look fat... sad sia... haha... the nite b4, i got make kuehs for them to eat... i make onde2... my mom make the ang-ku kueh... i cannot make the ang-ku kuah la... cause i make fail... the thing would fly away one... haha... dat's y i dun wanna do... haha... when it was time to let them eat the food, many of them were attacking the onde2... haha comparing the onde2 to the ang-ku kueh (both oso 2 tupperware full), the onde2 i make finish.... haha... they like it sia... not to say i thick-skin la tt they like my food.. but i was shocked loh tt they would finish it.. haha... then rasyidi's group was wearing the indian costumes THE WHOLE DAY.... haha... di looked funny at 1st... then in the clinical lab, he look like a doctor cause his costume look like the doctor's tt overcoat... cause it was all white... hahah..... then we took a picture of him with the stetoscope.... haha... should be la hor, the spelling... i dunno la... haha... we took a lot of photos... i dunno how to upload here la... if u wanna see, go to my friendster and see the pics loh... very funny... got our lecturer aka mentor in it oso.. haha... i cannot tahan sia.. after the presentation oni, i straightaway change back to my normal clothes.. so hot and the lace wad damn itchy loh... hahah..... so far, today was the best day ever la... actually now waiting for jez or my fwen to call one... they say they will call back... but until now no one call me back... jez on the other hand at abt 8+, say tt after she bathe, she will call back.. haha.. she bathe so long one sia... now 1130 liao wor.. haha... ok la.. tomolo still got school... if i got time then i updat my blog... bbye... haha.. like talking to who like dat... mauahahahahahhahaha
today ah... walao... sian until can die... 1st, we have a lecture.. then di was late and he didn't even go on loh.. haha... then, i went to fetch jes and accompany her to the orientation... then i have to rush back to the lecture theatre for another lecture... haha... saw my primary school fwen.... didn't espect to see him... he recognise me sia... he summore stay near me... aiyo... i dun think he remember me loh... he oni remember tt he stay near me... haha.. i oso 4got his name.. very bad rite... but me and him not tt close ma... we dun really talk... we oso different class... haha... during our break time, we went for lunch.. then, me and mimi go find our fwens tt are having orientation today... the chemical and pharmeneutical... should be ba the spelling... haha... i follow her 1st.. we sat there for a while, talking abt mimi's fwen's grp... they were sooooooooo quiet... me and mimi cannot tahan... like wanna shout at them, 'OI! TALK LA!!! u guys will be together for 3 years leh!!!'... haha... but we nv la.. cannot like tt... later ppl think we crazy ppl escaped frm IMH.... haha... after 'visiting' mimi's fwen, we all go find jez... siallah... from south canteen go north canteen... one end to one end sia... so like wad loh... i become ppl's punching bag sia... beat me until like wad.. sad sia... can cry... haha.. no la...
today slpy sia... haha... oni get abt 2hrs of slp... haiz... in mrt and bus slp until so nice... today not tt bad la... quite fun... all siao2 one.. including me la... i everyday siao one... be it ok or not.. haha.. di got make recording for me and the rest of the click loh.. i was listening to it.. i feel like crying sia... haha.. he like tank me in the previous recording loh.. haha.. but i actually say nth much la.. they touch, i nth to say.... haha.. then the rest listen to it loh.. we oso got take photos... a lot sia.. haha.. very fun... then hui ching was giving us some sexy pose... very funny... haha.. anyway, when it was the last lecture, i was VERY slpy... then my lecturer got give break la... i got to catch some shut eye... but cannot slp sia... di and yaty was disturbing me.. i got so pissed off... at last i nv talk to them... i fell aslp... but not fully loh... like sumtimes wake up, sumtimes slp back.. haha... stupid rite.. after the lecture, i was still a bit pissed and slpy la.. i jus show my black face... then we all make our way home loh.. they whole way, my face black2 a bit... tired la.. no choice... then, i met my fwen... i jus ignore him la.. he wif his fwen ma... then in the mrt, yaty, mimi and karimah down there talk nosense... haiyo... wanna fight back, dunno wad to say.. then my fwen down there see me shouting like a mad woman.. haha... then, jus not, st suddenly talk to me.. i tot wad sia.. then suddenly down there, jez, her, jc and andrew down there disturb me.. i already like pissed off again.. yoish.... dating, go dating loh.. no nd to disturb me... haha... ok la.. i dun wanna say liao... in case sth bad come out.. haha...
today very sian.... haha... tot i was late for class... but jus in time... haha... i gave rasyidi back his mp3... i got make a recording la... when the lecturer give us a few mins break, he was listening to it.. listen until so intense... then he like so sad like dat.. i tot he wanna cry sia... scare me... then the lecture was quite fun... haha... the lecturer very cute.. she make a lot of jokes.. then we got 3hr break... walao! sian man... we went to cheers... buy a lot of things... then i oso let the mimi and karimah hear the recording i made... mimi almost cry sia... she say very touching i was so shocked... haha... then we went to mac and sit down... then mala came along... wanting to discuss the project... we discuss a bit.. then, mala make her way to the library to find some bks 1st... after we finish eating, we went to the library and booked a BIG discussion rm... haha.... we continue to discuss for a while... then mala went off to meet her fwen... after she went off, we start our PARTY! haha.. no la.. i jus on rasyidi's mp3 until the loudest... we listen to song, sing a long... then oso we do our own things loh... haha... quite fun la in there... then i take ah boy's phone and video they all... haha... very fun sia... all in all, the day was not so bad... haha... but still a bit sian.. whole day oni got two lectures, but break until so long... haha...
today was a FUN day... haha... i siao already the whole day... the lecturer walao... buay tahan... so like shit loh... totalk i got 3 presentation, and 1 written report... wah... all due nx wk... HOW??!!! can die sia... haha... anyway, during my break, that stupid ernest and likai say tt they wanna go my school there... i wait until can rot then they say 'Sorry, we suddenly remembered that we need to push off to a place. Not looking for u liao. Next time k'....that moment, my blood like wanna explode... wah... can whack them sia... haha... anyway, after school, me, karimah and mimi go watch movie at yishun... HOUSE OF WAX ROX! haha... jus love it... but ah.. i almost kanna heart attack dunno how many times... mimi and karimah scream... haha... the 1st time, i oso scream cause suddenly i heard them scream ma... they scare me... hah... the second time, i oso heart attck, but i nv scream... wah... buay tahan man.. the story sooooooooo BRUTAL... very disgusting sia... a lot of blood everywhere... but the movie was fun.. haha... should watch... jus LOVE it... haha... those who miss it, *tsk3* wad a waste... in my point of view, the movie VERY NICE... but got a lot of shock parts la... chad michael murray so handsome... haha... after the movie, we went to the mc... go visit yaty and rasyidi... haha...they look very cute in their uniform... haha....
today's day was quite fun.... haha... jerryboy kanna bully until like wad... haha... fun leh... :D no la... but then later on, his mood dunno y so down... we all all crowd around him then keep on probing him wif qns... haha... the whole day was ok except the lecture... WALAO!!! the lecturer ah... buay tahan... he teach fast, but speak very slow.. he oso very 'soft'... haha... then i take rasyidi's mp3 bring home... he lend me sia... haha... after school, i go to jurong point long john... haiz... after dat, i sad sia... my fwen of 4 yrs nv even say a 'hi shikin' to me... i feel so sad dat i almost cry... haiz... i'm soooo sad... i wanna talk to her... but she treat me like dat... see me... but nv wave or wad... not even a smile... i actually, wanted to smile at her one... budden, she nv even look at me... heart pain sia... the others when see me sooo happy... except her and another one of my ex-colleague... i nv even do ANYTHING to her sia... looking at the two of them, i feel so sad... i was waiting for my cousin... while waiting, she got walk pass me, but she nv even look at me to say hi... all becoz of that stupid guy!!! walao!!! how can like dat!!! haiz... dun wanna talk abt it liao la...
today oso very sian.... every1 like no mood like dat... i sad sia... then when inside one of the practical lab, i totally no mood... haiz... dunno y oso... haha.. today no lecture... so, i cannot slp... haha... no la... i not tt bad.. haha... anyways, jus now, when i wanna reach home liao, my mom call me.. ask me to wait under the block go to sheng siong... then i go loh... actually dun wan one... but no choice.... halfway, i sian then ask jessie to call me... we talk on the phone.. then they say wanna buy for me those stupid bdae presents... dun wan la... i wun wear one loh... haha... then jes say she very hot... dun wanna talk liao... haiz... once i put down the phone, i saw hadri... in ORANGE shirt... walao eh... not good leh... dunno if he got see me or not la.. but i got scared... i think he saw me loh... one hello oso dun have... walao.. to think i used to treat him as a fwen... how can like dat... those who noes abt him, haiz.. i start to get confused again... mixed feelings la... wad should i do?????????? very luan..... very confused... haiz...
haiz.... today's day was quite sian... stay at home almost the whole day... cause my uncle coming with his son ma... baby cousin... he so KAWAI!!! haha.. get to carry him... jus too cute la... wad to do.. baby ma... after that, went out with st and jez to lot 1... had dinner at long john... haha... i noe... like no where else rite... actually wanna go pizza hut one.. but jez dun wan.. she dun... cause she dun eat pizza... haha... anyways... after that, on my way home, my cuz call me... we were on the phone all the way... then suddenly, my god-bro tell me that he quarrel with my god-sis and they break up already... i really dunno wad to do... i luv them both.. but i become the middle person... haiz... i'm really tired... my god-sis say dat my god-bro not understanding enuff... my god-bro is like dat one.. have to have ppl tell him wad to do... if not, he dunno.. he dunno his mistakes... now, i become middle person... i dun like becoming the middle person... i very stress... feel like crying now... head pain until like wad... sum more tomolo got school... dunno how gonna cope.. i think when i see my fwens, i should be ok be... oni outside... feel like shutting myself frm my surroundings... should i do dat? i dunno wad to do.... every1 ard me is getting hurt... i may look happy, but actually, i am not... haiz... dun wanna think abt it liao... oni make my head hurts even more...
sumthing funny and fun happened today... it's jerryboy's bdae.. then, me, yaty, mimi and karimah went out to buy a cake for him... then, we try to avoid him cause we dun wan him to be suspicious ma... haha... so jia lat... haha... then, i ask rasyidi to try and stall for time... while we get ready the cake... we ask the group to come la.. but not all come... then, when jerryboy reach, he was so shocked... cause he didn't expect it... he thought we gonna sabo him... but wad he didn't noe is dat we have kept a few extra pieces for special case... haha... after cutting of the cake and photos... rasyidi have to go off for friday prayer... then, we gave him a small cake... we ask him to be the 1st to start.. then, he smack the cake right at jeryyboy's face.. it was so COOL!!! haha... then, one by one start... but jerryboy block me la... i wanted to make him a lot of times liao... but he look quite funny wif the cream all over his face... today was VERY fun... also, i had a VERY bad headache... while in the lecture, i was literally slping.. my fwens saw... haha.. malu sia.... but head really pain ma... sumthing else happened... in out lecture rm, got this girl frm another group... walao! she really act ang moh loh... but she not ABC at all... i got talk to her b4 la... so funny... then, just now, i wanted to take her photo... my group all call her terbiat(mly word for out of ur mind )then she turn sia... my whole group was laughing... i laugh until my face so red... then she oso laugh.. dunno y oso.. haha... another thing was, b4 another lecture start, she turn behind la.. she look at me.. then i wave at her like very enthusiastically... she wave back at me the same way.. we all, all started laughing again... hahahahahaha... funny sia... cannot tahan... i woon't forget it wan one... VERY funny... haha... 1st time give such a LONG post... =)
haiz... today's day was sooooooooo boring... nv go out of school... ya.. today was white day... which means, we all will be wearing white.. tomolo will beblack... haha... like siao rite... haha... but something happened... me, and my group mates, yaty, karimah and mimi was in the lift... then yaty jump... she didn't see where she was jumpin then stomp on karimah's leg... then karimah shouted... i was listening to my discman at a high level.. then i noe yaty was gonna jump... then, i hear some1 screaming...then i saw karimah holding her leg... we all started to laugh... i laugh so hard that i felt like crying... haha... we run out of the lift laughing like crazy ppl... haha... tomolo have to wear black.. wad to wear ah??? haiz...
today, i was suppose to put up a sort of like a role play... i become the main actress... i'm like sooooooo scared! haha... then everything cock-up... luckily my job was to cry... my lines were short... haiz... so like shit... i got cry leh... but when i hear that my classmates giggling, i straightaway cannot concentrate on my crying liao... then i forgot 2 parts of my lines... luckily i cover it on time... muahaha... mimi, the other main actress was very cute.. when i see her, i like wanna laugh instead of crying... she very cute sia... she console ppl rite, with that innocent face... wah! buay tahan... haha... the whole day was fun until jus now! walao eh! nv do anything wrong kanna scolding... shit la... if anyone see my hand got scratches dun get shocked ah, i punching thing must have punched something to cut myself... but now at least got alternative, i no need to so pissed off liao... haiz.. tomolo white day... wad to wear in school???!!! stress sia... haiyo! haha... wear thing oso can stress.... crazy hor...
haiz... today very slpy.. tired until like hell... just now got rehearsal for tomolo's role play... so many changes.. dunno if can remember my line or not... just now so pissed off sia... one by one face black2... those who noes me should noe that when i happy,, i will try to cheer ppl up... but today, those ppl, i feel like smacking them... like wanna strangle them oso have... so pissed off... jus now in the lecture theatre, i wanna slp, but walao! ppl so noisy... cannot slp sia.. feel like stuffing thing in their mouths... haha... overall, today was a BAD day for me...
haiz... to day was such a boring day... cannot go out... then, have to stay at home doing nth... i can die from boredom... today one whole day online... not many ppl online sia... no one to talk to.. those i wanna talk to oso all go out.. so i spent the whole day talking to aretha or reading fanfiction.. haha... miss it so much.. long time nv read... all like so boring already... haha... i now notice that i am becoming an 'Inuyasha' freak... i am so in love with that anime.. can't keep it outta my mind... my wallpaper oso 'Inuyasha'.. but is not i put one la.. is my bro put one.. he oso becoming like me... haha... everything oso 'Inuyasha'... he so cute... haha... anyway, looking forward for tomolo so that i can practice my 'skit'... haiz... like shit la... i have to act... k la... dats all for today... nx update will be tomolo if i am free...
tired sia.... jus come back from esplanade... me, jez, st, aretha, and st mom went there for a carnival and mini concert... got TAUFIK and SLY!!!! SO HANDSOME.... haha... anyway, when we reach there, we say lots of ppl... then, we went to take the food.. when we go to the KFC and McDonalds side, we line up at the KFC part... haha... but the sad thing was, tt when i open the thing up, everyone has a burger, i dun have... :'( ... it started raining heavily... then we went to the shelter... we went back to the stage when the performance is starting.. then, finding place to sit.. .when the perfoemance started.. we straightaway rush to the front.. haha.. everything was very funny and very fun.. very tiring oso... shout and shout.. my sound system broke down sia... but sly and taufik is so COOL and so HANDSOME....